twitter my facebook. :P

im using my facebook as my twitter.

cos im not getting one.

I wanna feel weightless

Cause that would be enough

^^ weightless.

by all time low.

is my favourite song at this minute.

my fave song this week is sway sway baby by short stack.

but anyways i love weightless.

i want it back...

i have decided.

i want the numbness back.

i wanna stop feeling what im feeling.

dont get me wrong i fucking loved friday night.

but im sick of people saying they love me,

then hurting me.

im over it.

i want my friend back.

please numbness come back....

i have had the night of my life.

So i went to the awards last night.

NO PHOTOS. :((

OMFG. !

ok so heres the story.

I had the night of my life.

nothing could top it.

I didn't meet Short Stack which upset me.

BUT instead me and my friends I went with got

upgraded to SCREAMERS tickets. SO that meant we were

on the side of the stage for the WHOLE awards.

the lowdown:

I touched

Pete Wentz 5 times.

Ashlee Simpson 2 times. - and saw her undies.

Rhys Darby 2 times.

Mark Hoppus once.

Vanilla Ice once.

Danni Minogue once.

Lara Bingal once.

Delta Goodrem once.

Brian McFadden once.

Audrina Partridge once.

Duffy once.

So i think

It's safe to say I HAD THE BEST FUCKING TIME!!!

so you take them back - mtv awards tomorrow.

yeahh!!

so i took them back :(

upset in myself.

sorry keltie.

i will STAND MY GROUND THO.

i sware.

but then i swore that i would not go back

aww. :((

ANYWAYS. -change of subject-

MTV AWARDS tomorrow.

wont be on.

sorry loves.

ill have fun.

HOPEFULLY have photos for you.

me + pete wentz.

I WILL DO IT!! ahahah

<333

they say they miss you...

and you've moved on.

well trying to.

what do you do?

go back to them, again. and get hurt.

or stand your ground.??

im confused.

Ill stay the way i am right now.

moving on.

its for the best.

i love keltie's outfit. !! so cute!!

two days till MTV omg omg !! hehe

<33

its time to change.

It's the end.

Im gunna move on.

this time i mean it.

Keltie has a crush and im leaving my love behind.

I dont deserve to be used to make you feel better.

Thats not nice.

I'm on the look.

and on the look for some rad quotes anyone?

<33

I'm am now 17.

hehe. just cos were rad!

it was my 17th birthday today.

and although it didn't feel real,

i was so spoiled.

people out there do love me.

and it makes me =]

it really does.

thank you so much.

i love all of you. :P

its just a note to whoever LOL.

anyways it was good.

LOL so now im off to bed.

so night <33

Bradie Webb: Let's Play...

MONOPOLY!

Thats what he said,

OMG, yes Bradie Lets.

Ha, i love you dude.

So rad!

Omg, Keltie,

Shes so cute :P

Gotta love her.

I'm listening to the Jonas Brothers and thinking

how much i would love to take of Nick Jonas' purity ring :P

NAUGHTY.!

Anyways, so how is everyone?

Good. hope so.

Lets talk :P

<333>

Shimmy A Go Go.

short stack ahh love. (L)

Bradie Webb. hehe.

OMG might be at the MTV awards,

sweet they said if I wanted to go say hi they'd tell me date + times soon.

SWEET!

Eh, i've had a bad night.

i hate bad nights.

I'm going to bed soon.

I;m so tired.

When mum was gone the smoke alarm kept going off,

and since im too short i couldn't reach it to turn it off.

I just had to wait.

ha. LOL at my neighbors :P

anyways.

goodnight. :)

<33

School...

Ha, im in photography and were listening to the Ting-Tings. LOL.
good times.
I'm gunna miss random days at school.
I'm tired so im hoping the rest of the day will be interesting or i may just fall asleep.
Oh, so im having a good day today,
Well actually not really but you know
BE POSITIVE!
So haha.
So it's been a good day.
So i'm broed as hell.
I'm editiing pictures of Keltie on photoshop to put up as my
artwork. :)
so im off for now
<33

ha i have a follower.

I feel loved and special

Not to mention, again.

This 'think positive' attitude REALLY WORKS.

so people around me even notice the difference and I like it.

I will succeed. :)

hehe.

Omg its like nearly 2 days till my birthday.

and I feel old. :P

not really but eh.

OMG! I made a Keltie Colleen fanpage on myspace.

And its good. LOl

im so vain.

Anyways I'm off night

<33

Life is now getting better.

I have to say this whole,

"look at your life a different way" is working.

It really is.

If you haven't noticed Keltie Colleen is my hero.

I look up to her alot.

and when she feels better it kinda makes me feel better,

maybe i just need that someone to look up too,

to push my emotions the way they should be.

I'm so glad she talked to Ryan.

I really am.

I talked to someone I care about today,

and yesterday and I actually haven't been happier.

I really haven't.

I do care for the person,

and just forgetting them didn't work.

But if my life can get better with them in it,

Then I'm complete.

get well soon, Keltie.

Night. xxx

my new happiness.

I will deal.

with everything that happens.

I will not feel helpless.

Except maybe if i am.

Cos i dunno helpless emotions

are kinda a better outlook in a helpless situation.

im bored.

and yeah.

homecoming im coming home.

anyways,.

im off to bed,

so night.

<33>

Hold on tight.

ha. i dunno why but i like love Arizona by Hey Monday.

kinda random but yeah.

Sorry about no post my promise isn't doing too well.

I have turned a new page in my book of life.

i WILL be positive.

thats my new page.

and I'm going to stick to it.

I will,

people come into and out of your life

and you just have to deal

so I will.

:) byee. xx

people are wierd.

im so over people that change their mind over me like every 5 seconds?

im so over it!

find a fucking constant.!

eh. i hate it

anyways.

happier note:

Miki married me and brendon urie :)

hehe. and i liked it LOl

thanks babe.

anyways im off to bed now.

so post another tomorrow.

ilyxxx

sorry...,

I didnt write a blog last night. :D
OMG,!
im so sorry....
I didnt even think about it.
I was on Myspace and got carrieed away.
Anyways, nothing much happened yesteday anyways,
Ha, except Sisky. :P
If your wondering just comment here and ill tell :)
Anyways.
It was a good day overall.
which is a change.
So sorry about the delayed post.
But ill do another one tonigh for today
I promise. :)
<33

#11

I am 17 years old and I sit at home at night and I think about what I would change what I have done with my life already. Most people start when they have pretty much completed life. Me I start at an early age. I guess you could say I am an early developer.

and thats my words for tonight.

everyones at it.

I am numb.but i am dealing.slowly but surely.i will move onfrom you.I WILL.

the numbness is now my friend.

this is my life.

I hate it the way it is.

but i have to live it.

unless it finishes soon.

its up to the greater power.

i have done things i dont like.

but deal with the consequences.

cos its life.

tomorrow is another day.

and ill just live it...

Mardi Gra.

Was good.

I had to pee in a public toilet and was so disgusted.

didn't see anything of the parade.

which was annoying.

didn't hook up.

but watched people get fully rejected.

watched fights and sat in hyde park for nearly almost all the night.

ha. sad.

:)

oh and i also nearly fainted in hungry jacks.

eh. it was a horrible feeling...

new post later, maybe.

i now know how it feels...

Keltie is right its time to say:

I'm sorry...

tiffany blews

she just does.

its my birthday in 14 days

yay.

lol

night for the next two nights

xx

folie a deux(L)

"detox just to retox"

god i love falloutboy.

just posting another blog for tomorrow cos i wont be here.

lol.

yeah folie a deux(L)

love it.

xx

open happiness.

Round here we're carving out our names

Round here we all look the same

Round here we talk just like lions

But we sacrifice like lambs

Round here she's slipping through my hands

round here.

i love panic at the disco.

i really do.

read ryan ross' twitter posts and got some mad quotes,

love keltie more and read her blog everyday.

eating narchos for dinner.

and drinking pepsi.

loving life for no particular reason

and mardi gra is in 2 days.

excting.

night. xx

myspace is annoying me.

Ha yes. It's annoying, Like I own a site and my personal has 1k+

and like i just wanna reply to fucking comments.

But alas I can't. I've decided I should work at myspace and fix the problems.

Not really but still its a thought.

Just like my last post. :)

Just my thoughts being thrust into the world.

anyways im off.

goodnight.x

I'm so over couples...

Brendon Urie's new girlfriend Sarah.

Ok so i'm actually just jealous.

Like im not afraid to admit it.

I am.

But like I look at all my friends with partners and i just think...

why dont i have one.?

I want someone to love me.

Like ill love them back.

I'm just lonely.

Or I'll do a Ryan Ross:

“Maybe I’m a man, maybe I’m a lonely man whose in the middle of something that he doesn’t really understand.”

Except change the man to woman.

Cos you know.

Anyways I'm off Night :0 xx

first blog. Mood indifferent

Okay. So i'm kinda upset that my first ever blog is going to be of this topic, but it's the truth.

I dont really have a mood.

I am  so over everything right now.

I'm so over school.

Home life.

and everything in between.

to the love of my life:

I'm sorry if i am not the one for you.

I just wanted to be loved by you.

I wanted to make you mine,

and make you the happiest person in the world.

I'm sorry that i failed at that,

but I guess somehow I'll have to live without you.

Even know deep down I dont want too.

On a better note I got my Pretty. Odd. vinyl today,

and that made me slightly better.

I guess.

I want spaghetti for dinner,

and im having steak instead...?

hmm.

Oh well.

Anyways everyone have  good night :)

xxx

"Keltie Colleen is my hero right now, as she is hurting and somehow getting through life alright." Quote made by Me.